Foto Friday.

Sadly, that ring is not on my finger. =/


If I can't marry Chester, I say I should marry Ian. What do you guys think?


It's posts like these that keep me reading Mike's blog. <3


She is pretty when she isn't being all egotistical.


Yet another one of those 'this is why I love Mike's blog' pictures. =)


I laugh almost every time I see this photo because of Eric in the back... :D


I wanna marry him too! Why can't I just have more than one husband? It'll be like Big Love, only sexier!

-M

Don't Try and Follow Me.

Don't worry guys, I'm alive. If anyone's actually reading this. Sometimes I wonder. If they aren't, whatever. But, if you are just post a comment or something. I would appreciate it.
I'm sick and avoiding stress. Well, as much as I can without living with my head in the sand. It's a little tricky, but I'm actually succeeding. I'm fighting anger, fear, doubt, regret and love. All of that and keeping my head above water. Let me tell ya, it takes some skill. But, I've let some of those things happen at least once in the past few weeks of 2010. The stress of the newspaper went to my head, which is also known as crazy writer mode. Well, I'm always a crazy writer, but this is crazy journalist mode. She just won't go away and it reminds of the part of my life she broke. The part of me she took away. There is nothing I can say to her, or to fix it. I've let him take my heart again, say I'm done, know I never will be and remember a piece of me has always loved him.

...I am just a worthless liar... I am just an imbecile... I will only complicate you... Trust in me and fall as well...

New Years Resolutions

I did this at the beginning of the school year as well, but these are my 2010 resolutions in no particular order.

1. Get over that boy.
2. Start babysitting.
3. Go to at least 2 concerts. More would be nice, but whatever.
4. Hit every 12:01 to my liking.
5. Write. Write. Write.
6. Get purple streaks in my hair.
7. Finally getting to hang out with Matt again.
8. Audition for a part in a school production.
9. Don't freak out as much as humanly thought possible.
10. Clear up the vast majority of my acne.
11. Purchase the new Evanescence record.
12. Accomplish anything Tool or A Perfect Circle related. Anything!
13. Have the best birthday I've had so far. (Plan ahead, peeps!)
14. Move along from a lot of the things in life that I shouldn't care about anymore. Need I say more?
15. Have an excellent year, despite what may get in my way.

2009 was a crazy year. It was full of ups and downs. I look back on days like when I met Chester, August 9th, the Harry Potter 12:01 show, Thanksgiving and every other important date and realize how much life changed this year. I grew happier as a person in many areas, lost a lot of friends, gained a lot of friends. It was really a roller coaster.

2010 here I come! <3

-M

All, this one's for you.

One year ago today I met one of my best friends on the planet. At the time, I didn't exactly realize I would still be speaking to this person. I assumed that it was just some girl that I would speak to on the LPU every once in awhile. Linkin Park has brought me to so many people in many life, it's not even funny. Allison is probably the most major one though. Other than Chester himself, heh heh. We have been through so much together in the past year. Family drama, LP drama, writing drama, boy drama and everything in between. She still has to listen to me obsess over Chester, lack ideas for my latest piece of writing, freak out over ER and every other stupid thing that I do. Most people don't tolerate all of that baggage, but Allison is always there. She's been there when I'm sitting in my hotel in Memphis after one of the worst days of my life, while I write my newest masterpiece, when I'm blowing off homework and in the late hours of the night just to talk for awhile. Allison is one of my favorite people on the planet, I do not know what I would do without her to stand by me. She is one of the most Mike Shinoda educated people ever, she's witty, sarcastic and plenty of other things I look for in a friend.
I love you, Allison/All/Robin/Darlin <3
-Michelle/Mich/Batman/Darlin

( Extra Long) Foto Friday

I don't care if I post more than 7 photos.


In case you haven't noticed, I have become a huge fan of AFI recently. And I must say, Davey is a handsome man.


No caption is needed.


Damn you, Ryan. Damn you and your stupid hotel in Dallas. Damn you and the fact that I didn't get to be in your presence at any point in time!


Hayley and her awesome hat. But, mine will be better..


See, this hat is total gonna be better when I get it.


I miss my Adam. <3


June 30th, 2010 baby. I'm there.


My favorite picture from Inked, and I don't even know why. His eyes just make me ever so happy.

Arise.

I promised a Foto Friday, but you're not getting one. There are more important issues at hand. My theme of the week is "I thought I could get away from drama for just one week, and than it's handed to me on a silver friggin' platter". I am not a person that handles confrontation well at all. But, I will fight for my loved ones. You do not screw with my sister. You screw with her, you screw with me. That was blunt, I'm sorry. My life has yet again changed a lot, huh? It yet again, is having an affect on everyone. It hurts. I am scared of this person. My anxiety is through the roof. I stopped shaking. I stopped crying. Now what?
Everyone is pretty shattered right now. But, a late night game of Scrabble with Amy and Keith really helps. I don't know what I would do without those two. My Mom needs some serious up lifting, so we might go see This Is It again tonight. If not, I'm spending the night at Andrea's. We all need something to make us better.
Flyleaf has really helped me through some "the-crap-just-hit-the-fan" moments. And I found the new song that really describes life: Arise. So... I think I'm going to leave you all with some song lyrics.

We will make it out alive
There's a note in the pages of the book
So Sleep tonight,
We'll sleep dreamlessly this time
When we awake we'll know that everything's alright
And sing to me about the end of the world
End of these hammers and needles for you
Hold on to the world we all remember fighting for,
There's still strength left in us yet
Hold on to the world we all remember dying for,
There's still hope left in it yet
The snow on your face, and your razor blades
The twilight is bruised and there you lie
And sing to me, about the end of the world
End of these hammers and needles for you
We'll cry tonight, but in the morning we are new
Stand in the sun, we'll dry your eyes
Hold on to the world we all remember fighting for,
There's still strength left in us yet
Hold on to the world we all remember dying for,
There's still hope left in it yet
And sing
Sing
Arise
Arise and be,
all the you dreamed, all that you dreamed
Arise and be,
all the you dreamed, all that you dreamed
Arise and be,
all the you dreamed, all that you dreamed
Arise and be,
all the you dreamed, all that you dreamed

"Hold on to the world we all remember fighting for."
-M

Medicate.

For the first time in a long time, it is okay for me to sit around the house in my pajamas, eating cereal and watching King of the Hill. That's normal. I have all week off for Thanksgiving and it is really nice. Saturday Keith, Amy, Robert and I went to watch Allen play at the new Dallas Cowboys Stadium and I swear it was like we died and went to heaven. The screen is seriously bigger than my Mom's house! Sadly, Allen lost 34 to 35 at double overtime, but it was probably the funnest football game I've ever been to. Than Sunday we had a family reunion, which was fun. The drive from there back home is just really exhausting. I slept in until 10:00 yesterday and I didn't even stay up all that late.
Today, I am sitting around watching videos and trying to upload videos. ER comes on in a minute, so I'm gonna have to sit down in watch it. I might go to my Dad's and convince him to let me buy a new book and the latest issue of Inked. Pretty every one has it now except me.
I've been in better moods lately. This week I don't really have to worry about my friends and taking care of them. It's me time. I can sit at home and blare AFI as loud as possible and write Battle for the Sun. Yay! Two of my favorite things!
Perfecting this story has been insane for me because it is unlike anything else I've ever written. I'm really having to "do my research" on Ryan and Chester as two people. So, I have to sit down and watch their interviews and watch them interact. It's actually fun, it's just a little bit frustrating when I don't get any new material.
This blog is way too long, and way too pointless.
-M
P.S. Sorry for missing Foto Friday last week! I promise the one for this week will be up!